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ohwell ; today was the release of the Olevel results.
was damn scare ; making jaslyn more scare ;
then when i went school ; saw Jocelyn , she almost cried ;
in the end ; she cried ;
we sat around ; waiting 2 pm and go up to hall
then in the end went up & we all screwed .
Jocelyn and me , hold hands walk up .
sat beside each other and cried , hug & cry
take back results ; jocelyn cried ; i cried .
both of us dont dare to open up our results.
so both boyfriends do so ; & we 2 just hug boyfriend and cry .
thanks for being thr when i need you ;
thanks for lending me your shoulder when i need it ;
thanks for hugging when i really do need it ;
THANKS BOYFRIEND ! :DDDD
thanks everyone who tried to comfort me !
thanks alot !
boyfriend is leaving tmr ;
i really dont want him to go ;
but there's no choice , but at least i can text him .
that's the first good news of the day lehs !
i just want to be close with him , be with him !
how i wish i can be with him everyday
is midnight ; the start of 11jan .
i miss boyfriend badly , really badly ;
he just told me that he's leaving for nyc on tue :(
that's very bad larhs . haiyo ;
I'm just missing him badly , really badly larhs .
haiyo ; dont know when will he be back in town agn :(
i love him ;
i miss hugging him from the back ; lying my head on his back .
i miss being close to him ; i miss playing around with him ; i miss joking around with him ;
i dont want us to be so cold ; i hate cold wars ;
i cry badly ; i cry easily ;
i told myself not to be insecure ;
i told myself not to cry so easily ;
i told myself not to make you worry about me ;
i told myself that i dont want you to be unhappy because of me ;
i told myself no matter what i do ; must make you happy ;
i don't like boyfriend to be unhappy ;
i hate myself for being so sensitive;
i hate myself for being so selfish ;
i told myself is ok if you didn't tell me your things ;
i just love boyfriend ;
thanks jocelyn ;
you're always thr to takecare of me ;
still rmb tht time that how you dote me !
thanks alot ! :D
HOHOHOH ; ytd just got back from 4 diligence's chalet ;
& also from sec1 camp ;
it was damn tiring ;
sec1 cap ; 6th jan to 8th jan
well ; it was just so tiring to do station games ; repeating the same old thing for 16 times !
screaming for their attention ;
nightwalk was super funny ! Wahahha !
campfire ; was just awesome ;
has been sleeping super late ;waking up super un-human time for me ;
clearing up was tiring but when doing for NICK's station , it was fun ttm ! haha .
then went to slack around ;
lose voice ;
8th to 10th jan ; 4 diligence's chalet !
after camp went to chalet ; hohoho ;
was suer tiring ttm ! haha !
many things happen ; boyfriend wasn't happy ;
i wasn't happy tooo ;
thanks people ; esp Jocelyn , darylG , samuel & JL .
it was simply too tiring ; but BBQ was Awesome with mrong , mrs chang & mrs yap !
thats all :D
monday gonna take results ! which totally screwed ; im just too scare
should go out soon with Pork ! miss her ! HAHA
today meet up with the SMs for lunch before going school for the set up !
then chengen ! thought that today is the start of the camp ; so he brought everything
we all laugh at him ! OPPSPS .
then went school ; i went to collect my $200 bucks !!! hohoho !
then we started the set up & all ;
the guys having hard time finding tables ! haha
then i was so anxious ; trying to get things done
&there goes the incident ; i forgot the drain is open & hit it ; got cut .
start bleeding ; but thought it was ok ; until i ssaw the blood is like flowing ;
leave up and yes ; blood drips like damn scary ;
scream for tissue .
thy all tried to help me & im screaming at the same time ;
it stop bleeding ; haha .
continue with the set up ; unti Ziying came !
hohoho ; he brought al the cream and stuffs .
hohoho ; he help me wash my wound that me goes WULALALALA !
haha ! BUT THANKS ALOT ZIYING ! YOU HELP ALOT !
rush home & get things ; went for lesson.
back for lesson ;
remove bandage ! Blood flows agn & i go WULALALA ! HAHA !
BUT ;THANKS PEOPLE FOR THE HELP !
ESP JASLYN ; FNL; ZIYING & DOMINIC !
sorry boyfriend for making you so worried !
iloveyou ! :DD
today went to watch old dog movie !
haas ; it was an AWESOME comedy ! Seriously !
it makes you laugh till your stomachache ! That's what happen to me !!
Wahahhaahaha ! :DDDDDDDD
so ,suppose to go flyer ; but show ended late;
&jaslyn needa go to the doctor/ sinseh ;
so we accompanied her !
So nice of her !! HAHHAHAHHAA !
it was damn funny when we were on our way to hg mall !! HAHAHA ! :D
winson piggybacked jaslyn ! :DD
yonglin carried me tooo ! (pity him ; im crashing him with my weight )
a VERY HAPPPY ENDING FOR TODAY ! :DDD
&&OONYONGLIN IS MY BOYFRIEND ! :DDDD
hohoho ; is 01/01/10 !!!
haas ; a brand new year !
alright ; went countdown ytd !
meet Jaslyn & Jocelyn @ orchard @ 4plus .
wanted to buy the 2010 glasses but all places sold out ;
so went to buy the GEEK specs ! That was so coool ! :D
after that went to vivo to meet them ; but meet ClaW & FNL
went to have dinner first cos the guys had theirs
FNL & Claw is like super funny & cute lahrs .! HAHA
going out with them was damn fun ! :DDD
haas ; then order food & we play around ;
haas ; then he texted me !! WAHHAHAHAH
he's coming to countdown which i thought he won't be able to make it !
hohohoho ; was super happy ! :D
i brought his present out tooo ! :DDDDD
then after that went to meet the guys ; went rooftop
then after that went to meet him ! HOhohoh .
he talk about his trip ; make me wanna go korea ; but i will bring my own instant noodles !
then they talk about Korea ; taiwan ;
hohoho ; Jo&me was in spore during the holiday ?!
I WANT TO SIT AN AIRPLANE & FLY TO ANYWHERE (except Malaysia ; the journey will be too short !)
&countdown party at VIvo City was Totally BORING !!!
the party was like ......
so we deicded to leave & go to marina ; but after much consideration ;
we went clarke quay instead ;
racing against time !
we left only like @ 2330 ?!
is like when we tap out ; immediately run !
manage to run all the way riverside point ; but countdown was over !
so ; we ran from 2009 to 2010 ! is actually quite cool !
group was break ; so wait at mrt & go find tam& Co.
walk to marina ! Fulliton hotel ; on the way is ALOT OF PEOPLE !
but when we reach the hotel ; it was AWESOME !
thy having some party at the lobby !!!
HOHOHO ; all the Angmos are like dancing &they are freaking tall !!
went into the dance floor ; play around ;
was damn funny ; but it ended quite fast .
CLAW CAN REALLY SHAKE HER ASS & DANCE MANS !
haas ; then had the last dance of the party !
but seriously ; i can't dance ! :P
iloveboyfriend ! :DD
we're @ White Dog Cafe ! :D
The Cool People ! :D
I LOVE BOYFRIEND ! :D
Our First Dance Together :D
today went shopping with Jocelyn & Clarrisa thin !
went vivo ; shop around , wanted to buy this show but no size ;
went to another outlet instead !
went to this shop & we three tried alot of clothes ! but didnt but anything in the end
went to ion orchard because i want to get my shoe ;
Jo & clarrisa are like so happily trying to find dresses/skirts for me to wear ?!
they are like ; everything try ; try .
so ; went into Fox.
everything is going on half price ! HAHA ;
went in to shop ; wanted to buy shorts ; but sizes are like :S
then they make me try skirt & this shirt .
in the end ; bought !
haaas ! then went to the 'etude house ' to try nail polish ;
it was damn fun ; we try all sorts of colour ! HAHA .
then back home .
today's shopping ; credits go to JOCELYN & CLARRISA THIN ! :D
hohohoho ; i ain't that generous & nice sometimes !
i'm just like any normal girl out thr ; i do get jealous & insecurity ;
i think like other people ; i feel like what other girl's think over somethings .
Life is a tough journey ; a challenging one too
people are weak ; we tends to give up at certain point of it ;
yes , each one of us has been through a lot ; the down side ;
no one could understand the pain each of us been through ; but still ....
we went through it ; it maybe painful & tough for us to overcome
but always remember ; there is always someone out there in the world experience much more things ;
yes; your problems & what you've been through is painful & tough ;
but others may be even worse ; but they didn't give up , yet , they fight fiercely .
my life ; i won't say in wonderful ; i also wont say is totally dark .
yes; i've been through my downs ;
sometimes being selfish ; i will think that I'm the most unluckiest person .
but reflecting ; what i experience is not the worse ; other people has even worse problems .
so why do i stay here ; thinking what i experience is the worse instead on move on & try to help others .
fate is something that we all can't deny ; we can't change the fact ;
but we can change how we accept the fact ;
5 months in hospital ; make me learn a lot
&realise a lot .
i do see how weak a life can be ;
i also see how people fight to stay alive;
i also do see how people leave ;
i also see how hard doctors & nurses trying to save a life
i do see how families work together to takecare of the patient .
i also do see how people get so worried about their family ;
&i see how strong is my dad ;
i remember there's this case in the hospital ;
a lilttle boy was send to the hospital ; he is from india ;
they took the private jet to Spore ;
the little boy was suffering from some illness ;
they tried saving the boy & everything ;
but after a few hours ; the boy's brain was announce dead ;
doctor told the family ; if he had came 1 week earlier ; he can be saved
so now ; family has to make a decision if should cut off the life support .
in the end ; they brought the boy back home to india .
is just 1 week late; a week late ;
in hospital ; every minute is precious .
there will be any change in every minute ;
a week to us ; maybe fast , is nothing
but to that lil boy ; if he came a week earlier ; he will survive ;
there are so many people out there fighting to stay alive ;
is a reminder to myself ;
yes , there is a point of time i feel life is mealiness ; is too tough for me to go on
i want to give up ; i want to leave the world ;
leave the one that i loved ; I'm being very selfish ;
i just thought of myself ; but not others ;
is his tears & love reminds me that i couldn't just leave like that ;
there's still a lot of people who are still supporting me , worried about me ;
i can't leave like that ; i can't be so selfish .
i can say truly ; i can't be the strong Yirong anymore ;
is just missing ; i can't be as strong as last time ;
I'm easily affected ;
especially people leaving me ;
i just hate the feeling ;
yes ; now i cry more easily ; I'm trying not to cry so much .
today suppose to go for the job thingy . HAHA .
but the moment me & Nick board the train ;
first question : "you all want to go for the job ?"
HAHA ! nobody really want to go ; so we didnt go !
Sorry Syafiq ! :P
so went to VIVO city to look for other jobs !
haha ; went practically every shop to try . send in a few applications
have to wait for them to call :S
was quite tired huh .
was watching the life transformer 2 ;
&i how selfish i am ; realise how i take things for granted
when do we feel we are so lucky to have 3 meals a day ?
when do we feel happy when we see nice food ?
when do we feel VEry happy when our surrounding is so nicely done ?
we always get upset over small little things ;
we never get happy or satisfied with what we have ; we always ask for more ;
where as there are still people are overjoy over small little things .
ii hate myself for being so selfish ;
Yirong ; stop being so selfish ; stop thinking about yourself !
think about others !
&seriously hate myself for this !
super random !
but I MISS 4 DILIGENCE'09 SO MUCH !
i miss the times we crap tgt ; with the teachers
maths; geog & E L!
i miss the time when every morning have to go school on time ;
i miss walking into a class called 4 Diligence & start all the fun !
part of 4 Diligence :D
day 4 without you !
miss you super badly ; really badly !
hurry come back ! :S
written on 10.45 pm ; 28th dec